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dalekpatronus) wrote2006-03-21 01:47 am
dalekpatronus) wrote2006-03-21 01:47 am
Ouch I have lost myself again.
Then her tongue lolled out of her mouth, swollen and freshly pierced...
Fragments of dreams that I can actually recall keep playing over and over in my head. A few in particular are definitely there for interpretation. I want to say that I understand why things went in such a way, but I can't be positive. For now I will settle with the answer I have given myself and leave it at that. Maybe then I can get these images out of my head. I've already written them down on paper, but perhaps I have to find another medium.
I still keep thinking about somebody, I think many of you realize who I'm talking about. If you don't, then don't worry about it. I have been doing a little better with it, but not by much. The armour is coming up and I can only hope to build up my defenses as quickly as possible. I see no chance of these feelings going away any time soon, so I may as well come to grips with them and not let them get the best of me. Perhaps one day I will be strong enough to tell you just how much I care, but that day is a long way off. Besides, I think these feelings fuel me in some way and I'm not sure that I am ready to let go of that yet.
Now I think I'm done and I'm off to play games. Possibly draw and do a little cleaning. The more I think about it I probably should pull my crap sketches out of my wallet so they don't get ruined. With that said I have decided that I will be drawing. Huzzah.
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Someone shoot me for not catching the typos in my previous entry, I saw them and suddenly became nauseous. I feel dirty now.
Fragments of dreams that I can actually recall keep playing over and over in my head. A few in particular are definitely there for interpretation. I want to say that I understand why things went in such a way, but I can't be positive. For now I will settle with the answer I have given myself and leave it at that. Maybe then I can get these images out of my head. I've already written them down on paper, but perhaps I have to find another medium.
I still keep thinking about somebody, I think many of you realize who I'm talking about. If you don't, then don't worry about it. I have been doing a little better with it, but not by much. The armour is coming up and I can only hope to build up my defenses as quickly as possible. I see no chance of these feelings going away any time soon, so I may as well come to grips with them and not let them get the best of me. Perhaps one day I will be strong enough to tell you just how much I care, but that day is a long way off. Besides, I think these feelings fuel me in some way and I'm not sure that I am ready to let go of that yet.
Now I think I'm done and I'm off to play games. Possibly draw and do a little cleaning. The more I think about it I probably should pull my crap sketches out of my wallet so they don't get ruined. With that said I have decided that I will be drawing. Huzzah.
[Edit]
Someone shoot me for not catching the typos in my previous entry, I saw them and suddenly became nauseous. I feel dirty now.