dalekpatronus | Do You Understand Why I Had To Find You...?

I want to say this first:

Thanks to everyone that showed up on Saturday! I had a great time hanging out with all of you and I hope everybody else had a good time as well! =D

Now for some thinking and general pounding on the keyboard.

While watching 'Stranger Than Fiction' I was hit with an overwhelming wave of depression. I'm not sure if it was because of the movie or because I'm adjusting to being up here by myself. I think maybe it's just the adjustment, but I feel incredibly lonely. I feel like I'm not doing enough to keep myself happy and not doing enough to pursue what I want most in the world.

I feel like I'm letting things slip through my fingers and I may never get certain chances again.

I don't feel this way when I'm around other people. There are some people that I am happier around and it shows.

I don't know what to do with myself when I'm alone and I have moments where I think like this. I wish I could stop and just hold onto the feelings that get when I am surrounded by the people that I care about the most.

Right now I just want a hug. I want to be able to tell people how I feel without having to type it or write it down on paper. There are so many feelings that are trapped on paper and not flowing towards the people they pertain to.

I quit because tonight I fail at expression of emotion.

On a completely different note, 'Stranger Than Fiction' was a fantastic movie. Much better than I thought it would be and I'm very glad that I watched it, whether it caused my crappy feelings or not.

Do You Understand Why I Had To Find You...?

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