Entries tagged with insomnia

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Look For What Seems Out Of Place.

Why doesn't it ever come when I need it the most?

I just want to fucking sleep so that I can function at work tomorrow. Apparently that's too goddamn much to ask.

Brain? You can shut off anytime now. I don't want to think any more. Not about this, that or anything else for that matter. Could you just give it a rest for tonight?

Current Mood: sleepy

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I Don't Know What You Really Want From Me.

HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I just laid there for a while, almost drifting off until my music stopped. It just decided to say FUCK YOU, NO MOAR. So I got up to restart and tried again. That was another round of failure.

Third time's a charm right? I can only hope since I've still got a killer headache and lots of things to do tomorrow.

Even more things to do on Tuesday. That's going to be haircut day and then mom wants to take me out to shop for new pants. I don't really want new ones, but I guess that would be fine. At least I won't have to keep redoing the patches on the ones that I have now. I'm just the sort of person who likes wearing things until they are literally falling apart, new clothes just aren't nearly as comfortable as things that have been lived in.

Less than a week before Disneyworld and I'm starting to get excited~.

Now here goes that third attempt. Let's hope it's the last one tonight.

Current Mood: PLZ DON'T SUCK TODAY. :|

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You Are a Vacuous Soldier Of The Thrift-Store Gestapo.

Buuuuuuuuuuuuuu. I woke up too early again. :|

Oh well, at least it will be a pleasant surprise for my mom when I actually show up early for things today. I need to do a bunch of crap before we can leave tomorrow.

One of which will be a nap. I'll need one.

I still need to go get some cat food so that my babies have something to eat while I'm gone. :3 I figure if I fill up their little silo thing and give them an extra bowl of food no one will have to brave the danger of my room.

So things I definitely need to do today?

Get my haircut.
Buy cat food.
Go to Walgreens. :| For some reason. I can't really remember why though.
Buy energy drinks.

TODAY IS GOING TO BE....PROBABLY NOT A LOT OF FUN.

Mostly because I'll have to pack when I get home. And we all know how much fun packing can be.

I should probably check the weather over there too. If I can remember that.

Current Mood: WANT SLEEEEP. DDD:

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dreams,
insomnia

I'm Looking At The Man In The Mirror.

sd;lkjgasdlgkjewag

It's becoming a pattern. Every other night I just go without sleeping at all. I'm really kind of getting tired of it, today especially because I really am exhausted.

Then the whole thirty minutes that I did sleep there was nothing but a really weird dream. I woke up sweating and I'm not sure if it's because it was so hot or if the dream freaked me out that much. I can't remember much, but I was in some class and I was fascinated by the teacher and he only checked his e-mail when I asked him to. Well, he wrote some kind of recommendation for me and the people were trying to call, right? But for whatever reason my mom hadn't paid the phone bill so they just kept getting an error message. So for some reason, I tried to call her from her house phone and ask why she hadn't paid it. Except it sounded like someone else was on the line. And the someone else on the line sounded just like me, but all they were saying was:

"Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaa."

Just making noise and shit. :| So my mom was like 'STOP MAKING THAT NOISE!' D:< And I was distraught because I was sure that I wasn't making that noise but even I knew that it sounded like me, so I just started yelling and crying 'That isn't me!' over and over again. Then I woke up. :<

So I went and got myself some popsicles and turned on the fan. I'll cool off for a little bit before I try to sleep again.

I also think I might watch Moonwalker as well. :|

[EDIT]

STILL TRYING HERE. D:<

Sleepy to the point of nausea and dizzy. WTF body, wtf. :|

However, watching Moonwalker did remind me that I have always been in love with synchronization. Guh. ❤

Current Mood: Boooooored.

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Boys Wear Overcoats In Heat Like This To Keep Themselves From Showing

Man, I love Sundays. I almost always get bacon & eggs for breakfast. It's amazing. :3

Another night without sleep. orz.

This is twice in the same week, though last night I know it was because I was giddy for various reasons~.

Now you get a meme. An old one. ~~Because I need a reason to compulsively check my e-mail throughout the day. :|~~

When we role play, we tend to pick up a variety of characters. They could be ones that we like, ones that we want to experiment with, or ones that we just end up making from scratch. Eventually, we come to associate with ( some of ) them in one way or another. Out of all the characters ( past or present ) I role play, pick out the one I am most like and tell me why you think so.

I WILL SPARE YOU ALL AND JUST LIST THE ONES WITHIN THE LAST FEW YEARS. D:

( Muses Under The Cut. 8D )

Current Mood: HUR WHUT?

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I Joke About Sex Because It's Funny When You're Frightened.

I don't think I should be allowed to make decisions at six a.m. :|

Today is a mom day, I'm going to try sleeping again~.

[EDIT OF AMAZINGNESS]

DDDD:

SOMEONE IS SUING MY MOM!! >:[

HOW DO I SHOT FAT UGLY WHORE? MIND-BULLETS MAYBE?

Srsly, this whole thing is getting ridiculous. I really considered marching up to her door and punching her in the face. :|

Current Mood: DO YOU LIKE MY WANG?

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I'll Show You What It Means For Me To Control You.

HURRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

So I tried to sleep and failed miserably. I have determined as of late that insomnia is totally my BFF.

I realized about 3AM that I never ate anything, so it's no wonder why I had ZERO attention span. I think it's even worse now. Aside from the fact that I've been listening to the same 11 songs for the past three and a half hours.

And I have to help teach kids about Japan later. \o/ I CAN DO THIS IN MY STRANGE STATE OF MIND. I will not ruin the young impressionable minds. I simply won't do it. I can refrain. The mood will not strike me.

I have that and then I'm going over to mom's. Where we might watch movies and I will hopefully get some dinner.

Goals for today:

1. Sing that song in the car. :| I'm determined to get it down and my success will be a GLORIOUS thing indeed.
2. HAVE A MAGNIFICENT FEAST.

And maybe a nap if my body will allow it. Otherwise I'll just make sure that I have back up caffeine pills in my bag before I leave.

SLEEP IS FOR THE WEAK. orz.

Only you know, not. :|

Current Mood: nerdy

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I Know It's Sad That I Never Gave A Damn About The Weather.

✖ You are my...

OH MEMES, SOMEHOW I ALWAYS TRY. 8D

Now if I could sleep, that would be fantastic. But the coughing starts every time I try to lay down. :c

BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

Current Mood: I Want To Kill You~♥

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I Know The Sickening Thoughts That Slither Around Your Head

Not being able to sleep when I'm exhausted is so much do not want.

I think my issue it that I'm still annoyed over a million different things and I don't know how to fix a single one of them. So instead of a real entry you get a LIST. A VERY COLOURFUL LIST~ \o/

► I want sleeeeeep.
► I want a sandwich from Dion's.
► I guess I am moving home, but when I'm not sure. I just decided I wasn't packing before my birthday.
► I don't want to go to Gallup again this weekend, but I know I should.
► I hate my burned out headlight bulb that magically started working after I fucked up my hand trying to change it.
► I feel very limited about a certain something and it's really frustrating. I thought talking about it would help clear that up for me, but apparently not.
► I want MOAR vicodin for my hand. :| Srsly, this taking 8-10 ibuprofen at a time is not very cost efficient or helpful.

I think that's all I have to say right now. And again with the attempt to sleep~