dalekpatronus: (TOA ✪ HEARTS :|)

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Still the same Sonia that doesn't update about important things nearly enough. YOU HAVE BEEN INFORMED, SO NO FREAKING OUT, KAY?

In other news, I've been coding adverts and stuff all night for the game that [livejournal.com profile] heartaddiction and I have been working on. And on Wednesday I almost broke my toe. /o/

dalekpatronus: (STAR WARS ✪ ooooh mai gaaaaw)
Kidney pain + nagging from mom about money =


Seriously, she couldn't wait until I was feeling better to give me shit about it?

Work would have been really awesome if I didn't feel like vomiting the whole time.

However, I did have really awesome spaghetti just now. So that almost makes up for the other shit.

Now back to messing around with Sims stuff and drinking the rest of this damn cranberry juice.

dalekpatronus: (COMICS ✪ spider)
Words, words, words.

I'm putting my feelings into words. Or something.

Today was busier than hell for some reason, I ended up so frazzled that my hands were shaking and I really just felt like I wanted to fight someone.

Something at work kind of got to me more than it should have. I feel that I'm more than friendly to everyone I work with. They all seem to like talking to me, to the point that they are close to getting into trouble for doing it too much. I overheard one of the girls saying that her birthday was this weekend and she invited one of the stockers to her party. Not that I'm into party scenes much these days, but it seemed a little...idk, rude? Like, if I weren't going to invite someone to something, I would make sure not to ask someone else in front of them. I probably wouldn't have really felt like going anyway, but it still would have been nice to be considered, I guess? So yeah, no reason for it to bother me, but I JUST LIKE PEOPLE TO BE CONSIDERATE OR SOMETHING. Maybe it's really just because it's the second time in two weeks something shitty like that happened. The downside to keeping most people at a distance? Maybe, idek.

Then just blah blah blah, more Shawn and Stan bullshit. I'm at the point where I'm just doing that thing of listening and not really engaging, only hearing enough to make sure I can respond if the answer requires more than an 'uh huh', 'oh yeah', or a 'no kidding'. I think mom got all butthurt when I didn't think it was funny when she said she joked about wanting to 'stalk' him and try to find out what he was doing. It's not funny, it's not cute, it's obnoxious. At this point I really feel she should just withdraw from the whole thing, since she's way past being unbiased. She claims she is, but she's not really. I think it's because she's BEEN THERE BEFORE, but it's really not much of an excuse when she is supposed to be helping them both out.

The rest of the day was good though, got home and tried to rest for a bit but I was still too antsy and a little...stir crazy or something. So [livejournal.com profile] heartaddiction and I ended up going out and getting some shopping done now that I've gotten paid and stuff. It was nice just being out and about, not having to worry about getting back right away or being bothered with any of this ridiculous shit.

But the highlight? THE HIGHLIGHT?

Shamrock Shake. I had been wanting one so bad since I saw the sign in the McD's window last weekend. And guess what? It was delicious. GONE IN A FLASH. Maybe I'll have another one. SOON.

I have RP stuff I was supposed to do, I think. But the motivation has been so low I'm not even sure what to do on that front. :( SAD FACE.

dalekpatronus: (MINION ✪ DEEEERP)
Ho hum, pig's bum.

I gave in and got myself a userhead. I couldn't resist the pirate.

Also, sometimes I just want to make a trufax section when I do entries. Starting now.


I judge people that solely come into the store to buy bottles of Crystal Palace or Importers vodka. I know it's terrible, but to me that's just the lowest of the low and a sign of true alcoholism. I'm not a vodka fan, but even I can tell a difference between cheap vodka and something more high end.

Also, something about work that I forgot, blah blah blah blah.

Yessss. This week is over.

I need to dye my hair tonight and possibly go get a hair cut tomorrow. We'll see how that ends up going.

I had something else I was planning on doing, but I can't really remember it at the moment.

I think maybe I was going to be lazy and do this post in the form of bullet points, but I could only come up with two things. And I'll do them anyway.

☆ A manager wears really inappropriate lipstick to work. There's no reason to wear WHORE RED when you're supposed to be management. Then again, I shouldn't be surprised since she pays 100+ dollars to have someone make her hair look like crap.

☆ I judge people that let their small children go out in public looking like they haven't bathed or had their hair combed in a week. There's no excuse for it.

And...something else, but I've lost it now.

dalekpatronus: (FACILIER ✪ BOOM BABY)
Blah blah blah blah.

This week has gone by really fast, thankfully. Today was a gift shop day and tomorrow I'm pretty sure is a short day.

Managed to get my taxes halfway done. Federal is good news, state was a little disappointing. Not too disappointing, it really could have been worse I suppose.

Aaaaand, I can't think of what else I wanted to talk about. :|

dalekpatronus: (DT ✪ trust me)

Goddamn, today was so much more annoying than it needed to be. I woke up in a really good mood and then once I got to work it was just like pfffffft, auto deflate or something. Idk, maybe it was just the fact that I was told a bunch of bullshit before any of it really needed to be said.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better and more relaxing, provided that things get back to normal.

Just a few more days. Everyone at work keeps asking me if I'm excited about my trip and I really am. Already trying to plan out things, but more I'm just looking forward to the company I'll be keeping. That's mostly what the whole thing is about anyway, the chance to have more time.

Still really need gas in my car. Still really need a haircut. Today I got so fed up with my hair that I just pushed the part over a little farther than it usually falls and slapped so much product into it not even the wind could move it. Sometimes I really hate the fact that my hair is naturally curly, I really enjoy most of the styles more suited for people with straight hair so much more.

Today I held a puppy that had one of it's legs freshly amputated. It was the most adorable little thing and seemed to like me quite a bit, I almost didn't want to give her back to the lady that was taking care of her. I wish I had gotten a picture of her too, adorable little trooper that she was. :c

What I'd really like to do is get my hands on the dickhead that hurt her in the first place, only reason she had to have the amputation is because some worthless piece of shit cut off part of her leg and dropped her in the bushes. Like to see them survive with a leg missing. Rather see them dead though.

Got to sleep late and then went a few places with my mom before stopping to pick up the truck. They did a really nice job on the side where the damage was done, now let's see if we can keep it looking that nice. Stopped at the bank to give my mom my half of the deductible and realised that I had no clue how to withdraw from the bank through the tellers. :| You would think I'd done it at least once before, but no. As it turned out it was really simple to do, so that was a relief.

Need to move more money into savings to hold onto for the trip. I think keeping 100 in checking should be sufficient until I get paid next. Then all of that is going to go toward AmEx and then I get paid one more time while I'm gone. Thankfully I'll just be out for a week this time, so making up the money to pay the next round for the card shouldn't be too bad.

Blah blah blah, money money money, blah blah blah.

I really want to do something other than sit around today. Even if it's just to go somewhere and look around idk. I really wanted to stop at the Spirit store but my mom didn't really seem to keen on the idea. She tried to give me excuses like 'I don't care' and 'I'm too old' which totally don't fly since she like the Halloween stuff as much as I do. :|

I almost don't want to hatch my Manaphy egg, they look so cool. B|

dalekpatronus: (FF9 ✪ ...)
Ugggggh. My head hurts so bad and not a thing is touching it. I really would have liked to come home and take a nap right away, but my mom wanted to go and look at new recliners for her office. In the end we didn't find anything for her, so it was a little disappointing to push through all of that with no result.

I really was tempted just to stay home today, but I pushed through it. Had a couple of firsts at work today. One being a man that was so rude that I didn't even know how I should deal with him. Me trying to answer his question should not have gotten my head taken off and being told flat out that he wasn't talking to me. And a second try prompted the response from him that he still wasn't talking to me, he was talking to the woman behind the desk next to me. At any rate, it was like one extreme to the other, I helped a young man find some kombu and he got so excited when I offered to show him where it was that he called me a Goddess. Twice.

Bossu and Cindy called me into her office at one point during the day, the setup actually had me a little worried over what was going on but in the end I guess it turned out all right. They've decided to move me again so that I spend two days at the customer service desk and at least two days in the gift shop. The gift shop I don't mind so much, only that time might go by a little more slowly than I would like. At least I'll be able to have access to a radio and I won't really have to deal with too many obnoxious customers. I think they'll probably change it back quickly enough, at least I hope as much. What I really want this to be for them is a learning experience, a chance to see just how much I do for them at the front desk. The last couple of weeks I've been off three days in a row and on Monday I come back to a disaster area. We'll see how it all goes though, at the very least it's a chance for me to do something that I might like a little better. Plus I'll get a chance just to hang out with all the Sanrio stuff we have back there.

dalekpatronus: (DEAD ✪ o3o)

I think I'm actually getting sick, the way my throat is all closed up and I feel congested. Hopefully I'm just looking too much into it and it's just severe allergies or something.

Really just ready for it to be October already, but that's not really news to anyone.

I have a bunch of apps I need to work on and more icons to hunt but I'm not really sure that I'm feeling it today. Truthfully I'd really just love to go back to bed and curl up for a little longer, but I know if I do I won't get to sleep tonight on time.

Maybe for now I'll just stick to making myself something to eat and hope that I can knock this out completely before tomorrow.

dalekpatronus: (VOCALOID ✪ Hnnnn)
I was really trying to make the best of today. Chance to make up the hours blah blah blah blah...

My head hurts so bad I can't see out of my right eye and I've been fighting back the urge to vomit all day long. I drank three liters of water hoping that it was just the weather or dehydration that was making me feel so sick, but all that managed to do was make me run to the bathroom even more. I should have seen it coming with the way that my neck was hurting last night, but I really was hoping for the best. I had to medicate so much that I think I ended up making my stomach hurt even more, so it seems like today was just a day that was destined to be bad.

All I want right now is a hug and to curl up and cry, though I can't see how the crying would really be beneficial. If anything it would just make my head hurt more and then I'd be even more unhappy about it.

I'm going to keep my fingers crossed that a nap will be helpful, I really don't want to wake up and still feel this awful.
dalekpatronus: (HANAKIMI ✪ DANSU. :|)
Long day was long.

I still think seven am shouldn't exist at all, that's just way too fucking early to get up and actually be functional for a meeting. Which is why I didn't get up at seven and slept that extra twenty five minutes. Even then I was still dragging when I got there, yawning and rubbing my eyes as I tried to pretend like I cared what was being said. :|

In addition to that exhaustion, I felt sick almost all day. Hot and cold sweats, nausea, slight headache and good god did my legs hurt. I even opted to skip lunch so that I could leave early to come home and rest for a bit before I had to do anything else.

The one important observation that I made, there are very few places at work that would be safe in the event of a zombie attack. Maybe the offices upstairs, because there's always food and the thought of throwing zombies over the rails seems really satisfying for some reason. The doors are sturdy, you'd just have to find a way to make sure that the glass is reinforced enough. I think it's bulletproof anyway, but that doesn't mean anything when you have a mob of hungry zombies pounding on the door.

Now, I'm going to take a nap. :|
dalekpatronus: (Default)
Just passing the time. Or something.

If I'm not better tomorrow it will be five days of being stuck at home, here's hoping for the best. /o/ Stuff and things, stuff and things. I think I actually ran out of things I feel up to doing, so the last two hours were spent doing nothing but staring at the ceiling and pushing one of my cats off the computer chair with my foot. There was some thinking in there too, but I did my best to keep it from getting too deep. So much for that, all I ended up with was an annoyed cat and a gigantic headache. Now I'm taking another dose of Theraflu and going to bed. I have to be better by Monday afternoon so that I can actually function at work. Or at least do something that resembles it.

Have a meme. Do it. Or not.

dalekpatronus: (HIMYM - Yeah sure...)
fjksdjskdjf   BALLS! DX

So fucking tired of being sick. D|

I was really hoping to be better by now but it seems like my body has other plans.  With my luck this is going to carry over until next week.  Just what I wanted, two to three more days of not being able to breathe properly and coughing up a lung.  What's worse is that I only had two things planned for this week and neither one of them got done.  I guess there's always sometime next week, but for one thing i'm going to have to hype myself up again.  Not such a bad thing, I suppose, but a pain nonetheless.

It doesn't help that I've been spending a majority of my time overthinking things, but I guess that isn't really anything new. Sleeping doesn't really help it because then I just have weird dreams.  Plus I can only sleep for so long before I end up laying there uncomfortably and just staring.  I don't feel much like sitting up because all the medication makes me dizzy and blah blah blah.  There are a million things that I could complain about right now, but it all seems rather stupid the more that I think about it.

And now I think I'm hungry but I'm not really all that sure.  The appetite has been coming and going, not all that surprising with how sick I've been.  The more I think on it, burritos sound really awesome but I don't really have the money to go out and get food.  Oh well, maybe when I have more money.  I waited for a month to eat the pizza I wanted, I think I could wait a week to get a burrito. +_+  I'll probably be able to taste it better when I'm well anyway~.
dalekpatronus: (SE - DEFEAT)

Sleeping soundly and then coughing fit! DX

Today felt terribly long and I wasn't able to focus worth shit.  I'm damn lucky I actually finished the project I was given at work.  I think a majority of it was the fact that I was preoccupied all day, wrestling with the idea of doing something.  In the end I decided it was better to just leave things as they were tonight.  It's something that needs to be handled before I work on Tuesday, which doesn't really give me much time.  I have a feeling that tomorrow night would be best, it's just a matter of motivating myself to put a plan into action.  Even now as I sit here and think about it all I can feel my chest tightening up and I can already tell that I'll be looking for a million reasons not to blahblahblah.

But at the same time I know I don't want another day like today.

It's times like this I realize just how much of a coward I can be.  

Balls. :|
dalekpatronus: (Dr. Horrible - Bzuh...?)
Today felt ridiculously long and turned out to be kind of shitty.

Sad because last night was pretty fun and I ended up thoroughly enjoying myself.  I went out for a little while with Sabra and hung out with a few of her friends, which interestingly enough felt almost exactly how it would if I had been sitting around with my friends.  I had to laugh when Sabra called Rilke to ask if he was okay with me coming over, because she didn't just ask.  No, she said I was chill and I wasn't a cop or anything.  I couldn't help but laugh that for some reason she felt it was necessary to present things that way.  I swear, I'm going to start introducing myself to people that way.

"Hey, I'm Sonia.  I'm totally chill and I swear I'm not a cop." :|

We all sat around and watched a movie, had a few beers and then I dropped Sabra and Thomas off on the way home.  Then it was a quick snack before passing out.  I think maybe work would have been okay if it hadn't been for the fact that my hip was killing me for a majority of the day.  We were so fucking slow at work too, so that probably didn't help much.  I did enjoy watching everyone else putting out all of the stuff for Mardi Gras, which I was really excited about when I realized that's what we were starting to put up on Saturday.  I really want to have a Mardi Gras party now, which means that planning needs to start soon, I think.  I don't want to leave anything until the last minute and if at all possible I want to see who all might be interested.  Sara seemed genuinely interested when I ran the idea by her last night, so we'll see how that goes.  

I'm kind of disappointed by my schedule this week, nothing until Friday and Saturday.  I really am thinking about changing my availability for the weekends.  Shitty and probably stupid, I know, but I don't want another weekend like this one.  In the end I think it's more about having days off that are SET.  It might be better that way, then I wouldn't have to worry about whether I could plan things on certain days or not.  I'll probably write up a letter with something of a valid reason and take it in on Wednesday when I pick up  my check.  That way there will be more of a chance for me to actually have another Sunday off...

Yes, I think that's a good plan. +_+  But now what sounds even better is going to lay down again.  I think I'll finish setting up a new playlist and then go back to resting, maybe let the tv run in the background if I feel too lazy to make this new playlist~. |D 

dalekpatronus: (Mulder - Say huh...?)
The day was good for the most part, though I'm quite sure a majority of that was the fact that I was running on a shitload of caffeine.  Maybe the snow yesterday was something of a boost for me as well, that usually does have some kind of impact on the way that I feel.  I think I was a little disappointed that we didn't get more overnight.  For the best though, since I needed clear roads to get to work.

It wasn't so bad, again partially the caffeine, though some of it was the fact that I actually started bonding a little more with one of my coworkers. It wasn't until the end of the night, but it was still nice going over things with Sabra.  Kind of gave us both something of a chance to vent and let out a few things that didn't need to be kept in completely, getting fresh outlooks on things that we'd gone over with other people.

I realized there are a few things I'm worried about, almost to the point that I feel like thinking over them too much could be a problem. Some of it was brought up while Sabra and I were talking, but it didn't really help.  There's still not a solution and still too many doubts about certain things, all of them popping up at random intervals.  I'm trying not to let them get to me, not without actually knowing that there's something to worry over.  It's difficult though, sitting around and just waiting...
dalekpatronus: (AKIO - Zuuuuuu~)
So I was finally conned into watching my niece for a week and I already regret it.

I feel trapped having to stay up here, but I know better than to just leave her on her own to do as she pleases.  Maybe tomorrow we'll work something out, because it seems that it's fine as long as she's home before dark.  I just can't spend all of my time here like my sister wants me to.  The last time I was here I couldn't bring myself to stay here all night and I think I finally worked out why. It's not really that it's a creepy place or that I don't feel safe, it's more that it's huge and feels kind of lonely.  Perhaps if there was more than one or two people here it wouldn't seem so empty, but there's not really anything that can be done about it right now. 

I'm feeling a little shitty again, but that could just be me feeling uncomfortable about being here. I think I'll just chalk it up to that.  I think I'm getting a little too thoughtful and the fact that it took me nearly an hour to write this shows that I have zero focus, so maybe it's time to find something else to do.


Funny how the most unlikely of movies ended up making me even MORE thinky and sending me back down into one of those moods.  I thought perhaps it was the house influencing the way that I felt, but maybe it's the way I feel that makes me think the place feels lonely.  I wandered around the thing from one end to the other, rifling through drawers and looking on shelves just trying to find something to amuse me or entertain me but I got nothing.  I guess it's just one of those hopeless nights, even though I really did my best to prevent it.  Can't be helped, can't be helped. Really there isn't much point to sitting here and going over all of it again, is there?
dalekpatronus: (Bleach - Smug)
Let's see if I can get through today without wanting to punch someone in the face~.
dalekpatronus: (Bleach - Star Gazing)

I had stuff to say but I changed my mind. I'm just going to sleep instead.  Shit to do in the morning before work so I actually have to get up and make sure that I have plenty of time to do it all.

I was in a good mood and then suddenly I wasn't. Maybe it's just the headache that never went away.  Who knows~~. Maybe that's just one of those questions that will never be answered.



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