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As usual I had a big post planned, but now I just don't want to.

My dad it getting just a little bit worse every time we turn around, his memory is really going and I'm waiting for the moment that it starts getting really scary. When I think about it I get this tension in my chest and I'm really not sure what I'm supposed to do or say. He's barely able to get around right now and stubborn as ever, I'm really afraid that I'm just going to get a call while I'm at work that something worse has happened to him.

Today was crappy in general, really, punishment pain was at a high. I spent the entire day at work trying not to vomit and at one point I had someone watch the desk just so I could go into the restroom and cry like a big baby. You know it's bad when I sit down on a dirty floor just to get a little bit of comfort. I know someone cleans in there all the time, but still the look of it...on a normal day I wouldn't walk in there without shoes. Work is work. There's always something to remind me why I really should start looking for somewhere else and just move on. Shitty management in general and I'm pretty sure I'm about to get penalized for a lost package that I didn't even misplace. Nevermind that the package arrived in fucking NOVEMBER and that cuntwhore Jocelyn is just now getting around to looking into it. Dumbass expects me to remember who took the damn box upstairs, but if they just got their shit together and kept it clean up there (like I was doing when I was helping up there) it wouldn't be missing in the first place. I'll be damned if I let them take a hundred some dollars out of my paycheck for something that wasn't my fault.

To add to frustration and pain, part of heartaddiction's birthday present arrived completely wrecked. I was furious when it got here yesterday and called UPS to file a complaint. Spoke with them again today to do an inspection over the phone and then was told that they would contact Amazon and hopefully something would work out. Contacted Amazon too, just to cover all my bases and make sure that if I really needed to send it back for a replacement, I could. ONLY GUESS WHAT? They are completely sold out and don't know when they'll be getting more in. Once I hear back I guess I'll figure out where to go from there, it just pisses me off that it was the one thing I was sure I wanted to get her and now I might not be able to get another one in time.

On a more positive front, even with all the frustration at work I still know that when I come home I have someone wonderful to come home to. ❤ For all the shit I put up with lately, it all just doesn't matter until I have to go back in and deal with it again. She's so amazing, putting up with all my bitching and ragefits over stupid things. She made my birthday extra awesome too, which is just another reason that I'm so frustrated over this package fiasco. I just want to make things as wonderful for her as they were for me.

I've been playing Sims 2 quite a bit, which is probably more time consuming than it should be. Well, alternating between that and Black. I need to start connecting with people again, I've realized. Last weekend Toaster and I got back in touch and kind of caught up and it was really nice, now if I could just keep it up. :| I still have to watch more of Battlestar Galactica too, now that I think about it. Aaaaand, I think I quit writing now. I didn't feel like writing something huge, but I did anyway.

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I will be so glad when chinese new year is over.

Today went by quickly enough, but by the time I was able to relax at home I just felt like I wanted to hit my head against the wall until I passed out.

Busy in the morning. Then the coolers went out and we had to take everything out of them (which meant eight shopping carts full of cheese and weird jarred fish from sweden). Then the building right across the walkway from our entrance (which they rent the space from us) had one of the pipes burst. Trucks were delayed from the weather and blah blah blah. People were calling in and late and buuuuuu. Just tomorrow and Friday and then I can relax for a couple of days. I think maybe I'd like to actually go and watch the dragon dance on Saturday, but we'll see how I feel about that when the time comes.

Had to switch out the cable boxes tonight for the den and my room, but the box in the den still doesn't seem to want to work. My mom is pissed about it and I'm so tired tonight I really don't feel like I can be arsed to care. When I called the second time to see if they would send a signal I did get a bad service/reception/technical difficulties message, so I wouldn't be surprised if that had a lot to do with the problems they were having today. My mom was freaking out over it because they plan on sending a tech to look at everything on Sunday but she's like WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO WITHOUT THE TV TO WATCH?!SDLKFJSDF. Not even considering that there's still two working televisions to watch in the house. :| Not to mention all the books she's been reading lately. She could just read a book and my dad could stay in bed and watch tv all day. PROBLEM SOLVED. OR MAYBE HOW ABOUT ALL THE MOVIES THERE ON THE BOOKSHELF? Idk, I think this is one of those I'M CRANKY SO I'M GOING TO COMPLAAAAAAIN WHEN I DON'T NEED TO.

I had too much caffeine today. I'm extra ragey. I think I'm done now.

I'm cold and my joints hurt. Maybe I'll take a shower after I'm done watching this dumb movie.

So I guess I don't have to work tomorrow, which is just as well. I'll probably end up going home tonight and at least taking a nap as I'm exhausted and still feel like shit. I was so close to calling this morning and telling my brother that I wasn't going to be able to make it in, but I managed in the end.

Now I just can't decide if it was being sick that contributed to my mood or if my mood is what made me sick. Such a conundrum, but I don't really care to think about it anymore than is necessary~.

All I care about really is that I'm in good shape when we leave for Florida. I asked my brother today if he knew whether there was internet where we were staying but he knew NOSSING. So I might try to call my sister-in-law later to try and get it figured out. I'm going to end up taking the laptop anyway, if only to make sure that my iPod can stay charged. I just know I won't be taking my external, so I'll have to remember to set up some playlists for sleeping...

I'm still trying to get the amazon funds to transfer over, that better happen before we leave. Otherwise I'll have sold all of my precious books for nothing. :c That right there is $140 for the trip and then whatever I'm making for working here the couple of days. Then when we get back is the epic hunt for a new job. \o/ I'm sure it really will be epic too.

On another note, I really wish some of these people would learn how to brush their teeth. There's nothing more disgusting than having someone flash you a smile only to show you a bunch of rotten teeth. orz.

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JUST ONCE I WOULD LIKE SOMEONE ELSE TO ANSWER THE FUCKING PHONE.  WHY IS THAT SO GODDAMN HARD FOR YOU TO DO WHEN YOU'RE STANDING RIGHT NEXT TO IT?!