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Words, words, words.

I'm putting my feelings into words. Or something.

Today was busier than hell for some reason, I ended up so frazzled that my hands were shaking and I really just felt like I wanted to fight someone.

Something at work kind of got to me more than it should have. I feel that I'm more than friendly to everyone I work with. They all seem to like talking to me, to the point that they are close to getting into trouble for doing it too much. I overheard one of the girls saying that her birthday was this weekend and she invited one of the stockers to her party. Not that I'm into party scenes much these days, but it seemed a little...idk, rude? Like, if I weren't going to invite someone to something, I would make sure not to ask someone else in front of them. I probably wouldn't have really felt like going anyway, but it still would have been nice to be considered, I guess? So yeah, no reason for it to bother me, but I JUST LIKE PEOPLE TO BE CONSIDERATE OR SOMETHING. Maybe it's really just because it's the second time in two weeks something shitty like that happened. The downside to keeping most people at a distance? Maybe, idek.

Then just blah blah blah, more Shawn and Stan bullshit. I'm at the point where I'm just doing that thing of listening and not really engaging, only hearing enough to make sure I can respond if the answer requires more than an 'uh huh', 'oh yeah', or a 'no kidding'. I think mom got all butthurt when I didn't think it was funny when she said she joked about wanting to 'stalk' him and try to find out what he was doing. It's not funny, it's not cute, it's obnoxious. At this point I really feel she should just withdraw from the whole thing, since she's way past being unbiased. She claims she is, but she's not really. I think it's because she's BEEN THERE BEFORE, but it's really not much of an excuse when she is supposed to be helping them both out.

The rest of the day was good though, got home and tried to rest for a bit but I was still too antsy and a little...stir crazy or something. So heartaddiction and I ended up going out and getting some shopping done now that I've gotten paid and stuff. It was nice just being out and about, not having to worry about getting back right away or being bothered with any of this ridiculous shit.

But the highlight? THE HIGHLIGHT?

Shamrock Shake. I had been wanting one so bad since I saw the sign in the McD's window last weekend. And guess what? It was delicious. GONE IN A FLASH. Maybe I'll have another one. SOON.

I have RP stuff I was supposed to do, I think. But the motivation has been so low I'm not even sure what to do on that front. :( SAD FACE.

Day full of stuff. Some good and some bad. I think I did too much, running around all over the place after just barely feeling more like myself. Now I just feel awful again and don't want to do anything other than sit or sleep.

I bought some stuff that I needed, more shampoo and gel and dye for my touchups. I'm trying to figure out what colour I want to do my little streak, the purple keeps fading into this weird aqua and everyone takes note when it does. Maybe this time I'll really just try for the white again, we'll see.

Finally got some Burger King too and it was delicious. Mom and I had some good conversations about all kinds of stuff and then I realised that I probably need to find my bioplast earrings to wear on the plane in October. Like hell I'm going to let them take jewelry away because it's too pointy or something retarded like that. Plus they would be a bitch to take out at the scanners and then put back in. Unless I make it a point to take them out ahead of time, but the plastic would really be so much easier to deal with. I could just change them after landing or something.

Found out that my nephew is no longer the sensitive boy that he used to be, he's turning into a hateful person and it actually hurt quite a bit to realise this. I know when trying to express my feelings on it to my mom I started crying because I should have known he would end up like this, but I guess there's just no stopping it at this point. It was more disappointing than anything, I suppose, knowing that he used to be a good kid and now he's just...he says terrible things that I would expect to hear out of people that are completely ignorant.

Exhausted again, though I would have so say pleasantly so.  The day didn't turn out half bad.

Mom had to take dad to the doctor when I first got over there, so I just watched part of a movie before I had to go pick up my nephew from my brother's house.  Ended up back at mom's to finish up my movie before Chris and I were dragged to Hastings to find movies to rent for Christmas day.  Things went well up until the end of the trip, when the guy that was checking us out spent the entire transaction talking to a stupid cunt at the end of the register.

( LOLOL PARKING LOT CONFRONTATION!!!! )

Ended up back at my mom's after that and then there was a glorious trip to the grocery store.  I can't really remember much after that, other than the fact that we went to Sally's and I got more hair-dye.  FRESHLY DYED HAIR IS SO AMAZING AND MAKES ME HAPPY! /o/  There was talk of actually going to get haircuts tomorrow, so I'm really hoping that goes the way I want it to.  Then I'll have freshly dyed and cut hair.  I need to deposit my check in the morning before I go too, seeing as I owe my mom some for the help I got with gifts.  Plus there's a few more people I might want to get something for, it's just a matter of when I might see them.  I suppose a late gift is better than nothing at all though, in the end it's really more the thought that counts.  At least that's the way I feel about it.  But for now I'm going to finish up laundry and then wander off to bed.  We'll see if I can actually get through the whole night without waking up four or five times.  I had one day last week where I was able to pull it off, but lately it's been getting really bad again.

RAIN! *Z*

I was very excited when it started raining. It makes me so happy. :3 We'll also disregard that I started to type sexcited. Yup, I'll pretend like I didn't do that.

Went shopping again today and got a new laundry basket set. Now I won't have too much of an excuse for waiting to let laundry pile up. |D Mom also bought me four new shirts. BUT SHE DENIED ME THE ONE THAT I REALLY WANTED. DDDD:

IT WAS A BLACK AND SHINY SCREEN PRINT WITH A GUITAR THAT SAID "FABULOUS" ON IT. :| After I can access the money from selling things on Amazon I'm going to go back and get it. I NEED a shirt that says FABULOUS. D: I don't even care that it's a Hannah Montana shirt. NOPE. NOT AT ALL.

We're going to have spaghetti for dinner too. That's going to be awesome, I'm sure of it~. Amazing how this kind of weather really just perks me up in nothing flat. X3


ALSO.

MY QUEEN!!! I HAS SOMETHING FOR YOU THAT I THINK YOU NEED. YOU MIGHT DIE WITHOUT IT. D: