dalekpatronus: (Bleach - What?)
Braindead and extremely irritable.

The only way to describe my mood right now. 

The last two days have been shit, but all of that was out of my hands.  I could probably do something more about my mood, but I'm not exactly sure what. Pissed off about a lot of things and a little too easily annoyed. 

I  blame it all on the stress, really.

Though, there are a few specific things that can't be blamed on that, as much as I would like to.

I wanted to take off work for the week so that I could be around for my mom after her surgery, but she insisted that I go. I meant to do some laundry tonight too but she went to try and sleep early, so that ended up kind of being a bust.  I guess it's a good thing that I'm going tomorrow, I probably need a little time to myself and I definitely need time away from the goddamn hospital.  I swear, I've seen more idiocy in the past two days than I have in the past two weeks...

Bah. Beer and something...a snack maybe.  Then we'll see if my mood improves.
dalekpatronus: (AKIO - Discard all feelings~)

It seems that the emo is everywhere, must be something in the water. Or the air.

Pain, I'm in a considerable amount of it.

Coincidences, they make me think that I'm living someone else's life only steps behind them.

Concerns, most of them will be kept to myself because I don't want to be brushed off again.

Cranky?  You bet I am, but I blame that on the massive amount of prescription strength ibuprofen that's been consumed in the last three days.  Perhaps the other health issues that are popping up might have something to do with that as well.  There was talk of going back to the doctor to ask if it was possible to get a prescription for something stronger that would actually help with the pain, but then the realization that it would probably mean going into physical therapy again.  No thanks, I'd rather to continue suffering for the time being.

And now I'm going to pretend like I can sleep, big things to do tomorrow.


800 entries. Yay.

Or something.

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I am filled with great concern.


Kate.  Pudding.  Marshmallow.

ilu guys for serious.  B|

Now I'm going to bed.
dalekpatronus: (HIMYM - Yeah sure...)
fjksdjskdjf   BALLS! DX

So fucking tired of being sick. D|

I was really hoping to be better by now but it seems like my body has other plans.  With my luck this is going to carry over until next week.  Just what I wanted, two to three more days of not being able to breathe properly and coughing up a lung.  What's worse is that I only had two things planned for this week and neither one of them got done.  I guess there's always sometime next week, but for one thing i'm going to have to hype myself up again.  Not such a bad thing, I suppose, but a pain nonetheless.

It doesn't help that I've been spending a majority of my time overthinking things, but I guess that isn't really anything new. Sleeping doesn't really help it because then I just have weird dreams.  Plus I can only sleep for so long before I end up laying there uncomfortably and just staring.  I don't feel much like sitting up because all the medication makes me dizzy and blah blah blah.  There are a million things that I could complain about right now, but it all seems rather stupid the more that I think about it.

And now I think I'm hungry but I'm not really all that sure.  The appetite has been coming and going, not all that surprising with how sick I've been.  The more I think on it, burritos sound really awesome but I don't really have the money to go out and get food.  Oh well, maybe when I have more money.  I waited for a month to eat the pizza I wanted, I think I could wait a week to get a burrito. +_+  I'll probably be able to taste it better when I'm well anyway~.
dalekpatronus: (ToA - Not Amused)
There are few things that I hate more than being sick.

What's worse than laying around and feeling miserable?  Laying around a feeling miserable because something hits you in a strange way.  I hate it even more when it happens with something that really seems like it shouldn't hit you on anything that resembles a deeper level.  Right now I'm going to leave it at that and blame the fact that I'm sick and ridiculously bored.

One could be remedied, I'm sure, but it's a matter of finding the motivation and whether I feel like sitting up or not. At the moment that bed is looking awfully comfortable again, so I think that's going to to win without much of a fight.


I just went to the grocery store and bought food for a week, three large bottles of Sunny D and a six pack of bottled water.

All for under seven dollars.

Fuck yes.  That was the most AWESOME trip to the store ever!

And also the highlight of my day.
dalekpatronus: (SE - DEFEAT)
It's like my fucking horoscope is trying to TAUNT me.

I guess today is as good as any to start asking question and say all the things that I want.  Now it's just a matter of deciding who to start with and exactly what there is to be said...
dalekpatronus: (SSR - D8 !!!)
My car won't start.

This is an AWESOME way to start the day. My niece is going to be late to school and I'm going to be late to work.

Today is going to be great, today is going to be great, today is going to be great.

Maybe if I keep telling myself that it really will be...


And now I don't have to go to work~. /o/ Thankfully Therese seemed to understand that shit happens, though I'm quite certain that the only reason she offered to give me the day off was to save them the hours. |D Oh well, I'll still go later and get my check provided that all goes well. Or I could get it tomorrow. We'll see how I feel after I take a nap.

dalekpatronus: (AKIO - Zuuuuuu~)
So I was finally conned into watching my niece for a week and I already regret it.

I feel trapped having to stay up here, but I know better than to just leave her on her own to do as she pleases.  Maybe tomorrow we'll work something out, because it seems that it's fine as long as she's home before dark.  I just can't spend all of my time here like my sister wants me to.  The last time I was here I couldn't bring myself to stay here all night and I think I finally worked out why. It's not really that it's a creepy place or that I don't feel safe, it's more that it's huge and feels kind of lonely.  Perhaps if there was more than one or two people here it wouldn't seem so empty, but there's not really anything that can be done about it right now. 

I'm feeling a little shitty again, but that could just be me feeling uncomfortable about being here. I think I'll just chalk it up to that.  I think I'm getting a little too thoughtful and the fact that it took me nearly an hour to write this shows that I have zero focus, so maybe it's time to find something else to do.


Funny how the most unlikely of movies ended up making me even MORE thinky and sending me back down into one of those moods.  I thought perhaps it was the house influencing the way that I felt, but maybe it's the way I feel that makes me think the place feels lonely.  I wandered around the thing from one end to the other, rifling through drawers and looking on shelves just trying to find something to amuse me or entertain me but I got nothing.  I guess it's just one of those hopeless nights, even though I really did my best to prevent it.  Can't be helped, can't be helped. Really there isn't much point to sitting here and going over all of it again, is there?


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