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Apr. 19th, 2010 02:14 amIt always feels awkward when that feeling creeps up in the midst of a happy moment.
I suppose it's really just something to be dealt with since I can't muster up the courage to actually get it off my chest, it really doesn't last all that long though. The good really does outweigh the bad by leaps and bounds, so in the end there really isn't anything to complain about at all.
Though, I do have to wonder how much of it is my being scared that it all just might be suddenly lost or taken away if I never take that step. Or that if I do, I'll end up ruining something that was already spectacular. It's all a little silly, I suppose, but when I think on it I'm really not sure that I've ever truly felt so invested in something like this.
Now that I'm done with that, I really need to start focusing on more planning. Otherwise things could end up being more stressful than necessary, time really is going by so fast but that's not a bad thing at all.
I suppose it's really just something to be dealt with since I can't muster up the courage to actually get it off my chest, it really doesn't last all that long though. The good really does outweigh the bad by leaps and bounds, so in the end there really isn't anything to complain about at all.
Though, I do have to wonder how much of it is my being scared that it all just might be suddenly lost or taken away if I never take that step. Or that if I do, I'll end up ruining something that was already spectacular. It's all a little silly, I suppose, but when I think on it I'm really not sure that I've ever truly felt so invested in something like this.
Now that I'm done with that, I really need to start focusing on more planning. Otherwise things could end up being more stressful than necessary, time really is going by so fast but that's not a bad thing at all.